I’ve been wanting to share what’s in my heart but you seem to be preoccupied with things.
I wanted you to know that I love you and this is not the love that only loves you back when you’ve done something for me although that gives a smile on my face, however, I love you because you are mine. You may think that I stop loving you when I don’t get anything out of our relationship but that’s not true, even if you just sit and do your things I already love you. It may be a lot to take, don’t worry we’ll have the time when I explain everything to you.
When you’re with me, I just want you to receive my love and be satisfied with it. I desire that you know me and my heart because it won’t just give you a better day but a better life. I already know what’s going on with your life but it gives me great joy when you start talking to me about stuff even if those were just “petty” stuff. I don’t want to make things difficult for you, I don’t want to interfere, i just want to be involved in your life. They say I’m jealous and I tell you that I am but let me explain what it’s all about. I want you to be in different relationships. You need those. You’ll grow with different people but I tell you that I can give you the best. What you have right now are examples of the expression of my love for you. I give you things even if you haven’t asked of it and I’m happy when I give stuff to you because it’s either you need it or you want it. I hope you don’t put me on the same level as others. I don’t seek to be the only one but I seek to be on top. When we’re together, I want to pour my heart to you and tell you how much I love you. I just want you to receive it, that’s it although lately I feel like you’re putting me on a checklist, I’m just one of your activities, it saddens me because there’s so much more that you’re missing out. I want to hug you tight because that’s how you understand my love. A hug back is not something that I expect from you but when you do, i am filled with joy. They can give you gifts but nothing can compare to the gift I gave you. I was thinking of you the whole time.
My desire is for you to be the woman that I want you to be. I have big dreams for you and I’m rooting for you each step that you make towards the goal. Don’t give up.
Oh and I love celebrating occasions especially your birthday. I’m already cooking something up even if it’s months away.
I know you. I know when you laugh or when you cry. They may fail you but I won’t.
I’m just here. I love you very much Gayle.